Sunday, November 25, 2012

Hope springs eternal even in the midst of hard work

Relationships are hard work.
Especially, new relationships.

Relationships between two busy people are even harder work.
Especially, new relationships.

Relationships between two busy people when at least one of the two has children? Wow! Hard work does not even begin to describe it. Daunting, difficult, frustrating, at times exhausting.
Especially, new relationships.
The thing here, though, is that the hard work and overcoming difficulties and conflicting schedules, pays off. There is a reward. There is happiness, joy, pure and true enjoyment that can come from putting forth the effort.

I have said before that I don't need a fairy tale ending. And, I don't. If our lives “ended” with a big wedding and a sentence (“And they lived happily ever after...”) then what's the point anyway? The relationship, the love, cannot be the end. It has to be a part of the beginning. And, there is hope. There is always hope for a good life. Still, as my niece finished watching “Snow White” the other day, I looked at my mom and asked, “Do I dare say what I'm thinking? Perhaps I need to keep my jaded opinions to myself.” My mom responded, “You're just a commoner, Bekah.” Oh, right! Not a princess. Not royalty of any kind. Still, fairy tale love or not, I deserve a happy beginning, even if I am just some common chick from LA, surviving life in the Valley. Don't I? Don't we all?

And so, I put forth the effort. When I have someone to watch CD and Miss Hollywood and the opportunity to visit The Guardian, I take it. He brings me joy. He has shown me things and ways to enjoy life that I did not know existed. Even simple things such as opening up a box of pots and pans can be fun. Yep, I may be a dork, but I embrace my dorkiness and my love for the kitchen and for cooking contributed to the fun I had checking out The Guardian's new pots and pans. We haven't talked about everything, but so far we have been able to talk about just about anything. It is daunting, difficult, frustrating, and at times exhausting, but it is so worth it to spend even just a couple of hours with him.

Still don't know where, if anywhere, this is going. Still don't care. Still working to enjoy what I can when I can. And still, even when it is daunting, difficult, frustrating, and at times exhausting … I am happier than I have been in years. I love being able to be myself. I love learning more about myself, my true self. I love laughing. So, wherever this is going, I'll continue to enjoy the process.

Hope springs eternal, even when it requires some hard work. My ringtone for The Guardian? One Republic's “Good Life.”

...Oh, this has gotta be the good life
This has gotta be the good life
This could really be a good life, good life
I say, “Oh got this feeling that you can't fight”
Like this city is on fire tonight
This could really be a good life, a good, good life...

...When you're happy like a fool, let it take you over
When everything is out you gotta take it in...
 
 

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