Picking up the pace after dragging my feet

I admit that I can be a procrastinator. I believe it is, at least in part, genetic. My dad and my brother are both known procrastinators. This time is a little different.

I am at the start of my teaching career and I love that. I have had the opportunity to work in the perfect environment for a first year. The support I have received has been tremendous. I am richly blessed and incredibly thankful. Teaching half-time has allowed me to be involved in CD's classroom and support him in his first year of elementary school. I have learned so much from both my teaching and my volunteerism. Who would want to leave such an amazing environment where they work with wonderful students and incredible colleagues? No one. No one would WANT to leave. However, I have other needs to consider. Do I want to leave where I am? No. But I do want to work full time. I would like to be a little closer to home. But mostly, it comes down to wanting and needing to work full time. And so, I have started my search for a full time teaching position.

Tomorrow is the deadline for two of the positions. I didn't realize what I was doing, but I was doing it. I was dragging my feet. I have taken more time and not felt the sense of urgency that I need to have. Until today. And so, I am wrapping it up and putting everything together under a tight deadline. I will get everything turned in. I certainly will do everything in my power to do so. Either one of these two positions would be great. I am excited! I would love the school. I would love either of the two available grades. I would love being closer to home. Additionally, I think being closer to home would allow me to participate more fully both at the school and in outside activities even though I would have longer work hours. I want to do more writing. I want to audition for a show or two. I have ideas I want to see through at church. And, I want to do more with my two beautiful children. Tonight, as I tucked in CD, it really hit me. They need more of me and to do that, I need full time work closer to home. I still need to get out and have some "mama time," but by simply cutting my commute time, I can be home more for homework and help the kids participate in their extra-curricular activities. I can see the possibility for balance and I need that. They need that. We need that. I strive for balance. And so, this is something I need to do as I work toward establishing that balance.

I truly believe that the right job, at the right place, at the right time will be mine. But I can't sit and wait for it. I have to look. I have to apply. I have to put myself out there. And so...it begins.

Here goes nothin'....